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Yo guys, listen up. I'd need some serious help regarding my personal problem. I can't stand anymore the construction workers inside of my building, they're literally for almost a whole ****ing day on the top/roof of my building 2 entraces linked up, thin walls. I could ****ing swear, but I better not do that, that Ima just go there man grab my ****ing huge knife and just slaughter all of them including these ****ing stupid *****ic construction workers and their responsibles.

I swear I didn't know anything at all that my mother for gods ****ing sake would purchase this flat not even knowing the fact that this ****ing ridiculous building has extremely thin walls we're living almost in the god damn swamp. Joke on a side, man, but I can't tolerate this anymore? You know what is the problem here? I'm able to go there and talk to them but I know I won't achieve anything, they will just do their job even more by terrorizing this poor stupid building where I live now. I don't know what the **** is going on with my poor ****ing country, but it's understandable that people just need their money. Law and order when - lost all of its meanings in my country, it's ****ing ridiculous that Southeast Europe (Balkan mostly) is so damn ****ed up. I don't wanna start my conversation regarding financial mafia and most of the banks who are now in the top of the world, corruption and other freemasonry bull**** and who is in charge for everything in the world etc.... and many other secret agencies, that's not any of my ****ing concern. While this is happening, I have to walk for hours, I have to do stuff in my home dish, making lunch, to train even box on my own just, to mediate and other things just to avoid stress and my short breath.

I cannot legitimately speaking go to police station, there's no cure for that since they don't give a **** about you though I had so many trouble with police, thank ****ing God that I am okay now and I am not even messing with police officers anymore. Good ****ing Lord. Next, in our law it says that if you mention something regarding this illegal or whatever actions or you're just trying to speak of, it says that a police officer's duty will never be to inform the other people who do illegal actions, people who are in suspicious illegal groups with different interests mostly (mafia) members. I cannot believe them, cops are ****ing *****s man, most of them work for money and chill on the streets to catch up some of mother****ing *****s who smoke weed, though I never smoked a single blunt I never did drink any types of alcohol, (Beer last time few years ago and wine few years ago). I only smoked cigarettes for approx 7 years, nothing from that more.

I'm so ****ing crazy that I'd go I swear take a knife or a shotgun and just terrorize them with my bare hands, but I realized that it doesn't lead anywhere, even if I take my complaints with me it will get stored in their fancy drawers. I'm truly sad that my mother was not informed that well. I lost all my reputation even with some good people, but I swear the damn God I get mad sometimes and I just like hitting things randomly because of this, sometimes its happening at 1 or 2 am when I for example wanna take a rest man at 11 pm, this is ****ing ridiculous! I was supposed to get up at 7 or 8 am as usual, but now I wake up today at almost 12 pm. I even took this psychologist therapy I mean, conversation about all of this. My granny used to work in court for over 30 years there, can't do ****. My father is tax inspector I barely hear of him, family destroyed doesn't matter now. The only advice I've been given to this was from my granny is if somehow I get married soon or just if this home would be on my name one day is if I just sell this one and buy the other home, flat.

There's also this conversation of us - people who live in this building, neighbours, but man, it will not be helpful. I started having anxiety of not falling asleep sometimes, my heart races quick sometimes, I train every day, I occupy myself with something every single day, I read books, I've learned to cook 3/4 meals for lunch now. The only problem is I don't work anywhere atm, how will I, I don't have a normal sleep anymore. Thankfully, I somehow manage to take a full nap at 2 AM because of this ****ing problem with constructions. Good ****ing Lord, I'm so terribly bored that Ima just take some money get out of my flat and **** some good hoe for hours. Complaining about what? Even if I have a strong mother****ing reason for this and rules, I can't do ****ing **** because I am a ****ing zero in government of my country. They bring the rules (You respect them) How is that so, man, I'm bored.

You need to get a house - none of that stuff, repair what you decide, don't pay some "maintenance"(pay because you "have to pay", with 0 service for it) corrupt soviet style crap. Had to pay for water that leaks out somewhere and has nothing to do with me instead of what I use, crap like that. I asked them about maintenance plans, about roof and stuff, it wasn't changed since it was built in 80ties, they just made big eyes like I'm alien. I sold my flat, best decision of my life, even if I have to pay a little more for transport now, it far outweighs all the corrupted insanity that comes with "collective" and "landlord" stuff. I'm king of my own little castle now, I pay for services I choose, aside from property tax. And no one bothers me.

I'd have to buy a house 1000 %.

Away from all this crap of major areas (cities), perhaps a village, or smth. Or just some newest buildings in the town like my father got it now, even tho my grandfather has given him 60k euros for this sweety place, man you got everything, balcony, your own kitchen, few rooms and bar where you can drink and relax. Anyways, you won't hear a bug or smth, the only thing you may hear is birds going south and the bells of church. All in all, such a great ambient and place to live at. IDK what my neighbour (the one responsible for my building does, but I only know he got plenty of money, I even heard the stories of the granny here that lives in my building, the doors next to me, she told me that this person who is doing all this crap is somehow 'someone you should never mess with etc... typical stories, perhaps she is right perhaps not I dunno, but I'll use the brain 100 % to prevent a fight with the responsibles'. She has told me that he tortured an old man and other granny to sign up so he can ****ing construct here and work on it, she even told me once she seen him how he is shaking his hands with people in the banks and just sharing some of his money to them. IDK what our stupid government does about all of this question, the biggest irony you cannot even contact the agencies who are against the corruption. Southeast is totally ****ed up, but trust me, we're people of faith, we've been through a lot in the past and now struggling a lot, we're people of intelligence and willpower. Unfortunately, our goverment is truly ****ed up and there was even this story - the police officer once came to the place of this reported incident and he told that person who is reporting this that he or she may end up loosing life for this, he was literally begging him or her to stop this one, luckily the cop understood everything quite well and obviously no cameras were implemented during the day of their conversation.

Even though, I do respect all my neighbours here, if I have a problem I go and talk to them face to face. I'm good with older people especially if they need help or they're deaf or they can't pass the street, I help them. I never told an older person get the **** out, you're ****ing miserable and I don't wanna help you. I remember even helping one older dude he has somehow dementia or whatever, he could not walk propelly he fell down, no one was there. I lifted that person up and escorted him for more than 100 metres nearby the bus station in my town. I just see that my neighbours are somehow scared or something of all this, I dunno just how my other neighbour who works in army, I used to be good with him, I had a good reputation, I feel now I lost all of its reputation with most of people 'cause sometimes I don't like keeping my mouth shut, which now I've learned it and couldn't do it earlier since I gotta start working in the morning eventually, but how will you do that, when no one respects anything and law nowadays. Prayers? Meditation? Cooking? Reading books? Box? Training? Walking? Running? Focusing my mind on something else, I'm a chill dude, I'm that type of a person who enters RDF and just keep my mouth shut, 'cause it doesn't lead anywhere talking to mentally ill people every single day, even that sometimes just makes me wanna knock someone up.. so instead of that, I've learned ignoring.

OT: Remove this thread plox, I found a solution.