Advice needed

[2pac4lifeyo]

Hello everyone.

I do play on Warmane since 2017, that's the year I joined here in the summer time. Throughout the gameplay, I progressed from leveling many toons until lvl 80, been playing normal rdfs and heroic ones, thousands of them. I've been farming gold to get some BiS items, I've been selling few characters lvl 80.

My achievements are full normal ICC and probably half HC ICC achievements including RS normal only. I've been in few guilds, met many people, some guilds departed/disbanded and so on. I had pure enjoyment to play. I obviously had many burn outs from this game and this is where I stopped like 2 years ago from playing forward, I am stuck and everything has become boring to me. I have been leveling almost all the professions except inscription I guess.

Unfortunately, 3 years ago I've been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, I'm 30 years old. I am struggling not to join a raid, but to accept criticism, I have a fear of a failure. I don't wanna talk about that stuff what's going on with me, but I feel like I am stuck totally.

I had been through some harsh experience when I joined some guilds before and I failed few times and the leaders were mocking at me, you suck you're blah blah blah. I cannot imagine how is it in some hardcore guilds HC raiding. I mean, we all got problem, but It seems like I need to improve.

My emotion regulation is now great even w/o therapy, I guess I have to face and embrace the fear of a failure. Dayum, its so hard.

[valackrtina]

Listen man

You've been playing since 2017. You've put in the hours, done the grind, hit ICC, farmed gold, maxed professions. That alone proves you're not some casual. You're dedicated. But right now you're stuck in your own head, not in the game.

You say you fear failure and criticism? Good. That means you're human. But you don't grow by avoiding it. You grow by walking straight into it and learning to tank the hits. Everyone who's ever stepped into a raid has wiped, been flamed, or messed up. You think the top players never failed? They just kept showing up. That’s what separates them from everyone else.

You're 30. Time to stop wrapping yourself in comfort. Life doesn't care about your fears. If you want something, you take the shot and risk falling flat. That's how you get stronger. Sitting on the sideline won't change anything.

You've got BPD? Then fight harder. You already made it this far. You've clearly got discipline. You just need to stop giving your doubts the steering wheel. Own your flaws and turn them into fuel. You’re not weak. You’re untested. That’s all.

You don’t need a safe space. You need fire in your gut. Take the criticism. Take the failure. Take the pressure. Then push back and get better. That’s how warriors are built.

You already know what to do. You just need to stop hesitating and start doing it. Get back in. Raid. Fail. Improve. Repeat.

No more waiting.

[zorino]

I'm sorry for your situation, what I would suggest is to carefully consider any guild you decide to join now or in the future if you ever decide to do so.
It is not easy to understand what kind of people you are dealing with when you are dealing with them and through a game chat it is even worse.

I think you could go back to raiding a little at a time, with players who play calmly, who don't offend and who don't demand.
It's not easy to find players like that, but even if they are few, I think they are still there.

Be more self-confident, a security to be built a little at a time, in small steps day after day and above all by doing it without being in a hurry.

I wish you the best and to find good players not only in the game but also in the soul.

[2pac4lifeyo]

Thank you! I am gonna try some normal ICC by tomorrow 10/25. Then Ima improve at heroics or hopefully I find one guild.

:)

Yeah, I mean step by step, and easily going through! Ima try it out.