Just got out from Suicide Squad. For some reason it put a big smile on my face and I feel way better. Thank you media consumption.
As for alcohol I know it doesn't lead anywhere that's worth but sometimes I want to forget and just feel worthless. I can say I'm a masochistic because I want to feel miserable, like a wound that hurts but you still mess with it.
Just finished a website post about 7 steps to awakening, so feeling so down is familiar to me. Though I just prefer to get away from everyone for a week or so, get all the emotions out and then afterwards I'm ok for a while (usually about a year)
I turned 20 today and I'm not happy about it at all.
No longer a 'teenager'
People my age and beyond will still see you as "young", though. You're not quite out of the woods yet. In fact, you won't be until you get closer to 25.
I did upload a video of myself though. Normally I'd say it's a bit revealing for the forum, but I guess I could make an exception because of this thread. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SUcjCO5nrycQ
Sometimes I feel bored, and I just go to the warmane forum and check if there have bene updates, even if I have checked 2 times already that day.