Confessions

[Gabrantus]

^ That actually sounds pretty normal, unless your depressive periods are very depressive.

You just need to learn how to immerse yourself in something , any form of escapism can help.

Or you could always try convincing yourself that everything is fine.

Lying to yourself can be very dangerous.

[Mercy]

^ That actually sounds pretty normal, unless your depressive periods are very depressive.

What is this "normal" you speak of?

[Gabrantus]

What is this "normal" you speak of?

Well, nothing is normal, if something was perfectly normal, it would be strange, but in this case, going from good mood to bad occasionally is something most people go through, so it's considered "normal".

[Mercy]

I've not bothered back-reading the conversation, so... eh. It's "normal" (normal because of the high quantity of people that suffer similarly) to be depressed once in a while. I don't know if I'm normal. I'm depressed rather often, but I don't think I've ever felt like I was depressed for no reason.

[Shiina]

I don't think there is a norm, so to speak, for depression. We all have our own reasons, our own stories, et cetera. Very few people's stores are the same. It's inpossible for something to be 'normal' when there is no majority to be normal to.

I think that one can normally be depressed, as in it is a constant reoccurance for that person. This doesn't really make depression 'normal' though, only familiar to the individual. You learn to push your problems off into a small corner and lock them up in that box that you wish was there. Coping is the easy part.

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I like this version better than the original
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[DoomStrike]

^ That actually sounds pretty normal, unless your depressive periods are very depressive.

It would be (what I'm guessing is your definition of) "normal" if I didn't require medication and weekly shrink visits but whatever.......this topic is making me uncomfortable now. How about them Lakers?

[Gabrantus]

I've not bothered back-reading the conversation, so... eh. It's "normal" (normal because of the high quantity of people that suffer similarly) to be depressed once in a while. I don't know if I'm normal. I'm depressed rather often, but I don't think I've ever felt like I was depressed for no reason.

Well, I'm in love with a person who for some mysterious reason can't accept me as her friend, partially because she doesn't understand my feelings, and that makes me feel like ****, and anyone else would just give up and move on, but I won't do that because I'd consider it something only a weakling would do.

It would be (what I'm guessing is your definition of) "normal" if I didn't require medication and weekly shrink visits but whatever.......this topic is making me uncomfortable now. How about them Lakers?

As I said: if it's very serious, it's not normal.

[Sigurd]

Well, I'm in love with a person who for some mysterious reason can't accept me as her friend, partially because she doesn't understand my feelings, and that makes me feel like ****, and anyone else would just give up and move on, but I won't do that because I'd consider it something only a weakling would do.

Just to write it as intro, this is more of my own confession then reply to you. And it's very confusingly written as I don't know how I feel right now, though my feelings have nothing to do with the subject. I'm just moody. From the same reason as you I left a lot of details that would make this clearer.

I don't know your situation well, but I was in very similar one. We've been together for ~3 months so it wasn't real relationship... She wasn't really emotionally stable as she recently broke up with boyfriend she was with for longer time... After we separated I was depressed for a while, then I've fell in a state of apathy and emptiness that I wouldn't wish to anyone.

I had a long conversation with my best friend about our former and present girls and crushes, and though we both don't believe in a "type", we noticed a pattern in each others. All of my crushes since then either physically or personally remind of her, at least a bit. The first thing I notice on girl are eyes and this girl had most beautiful eyes ever, actually she was perfect for me, looks wise. I still consider her most beautiful girl I've ever met. I've had lot of fantasies about her, about future, about everything. And though she's cool person and felt like a perfect match for me, a soul mate. Only after I cooled off and woke up from my state, I started to realize her imperfections, her bad sides, some really bad.

The guy she's with now, and the former one, we all know each other, as we are fellow guitarists. This first one, he's about to get married, we talked recently and he started to thank me for "saving" him from her, as he found true love after he got ever her. She ain't the devil but isn't what I saw in my delusions. I've never fully "recovered" of her, she helped shape me into what I am. I can't be friends with her now, I don't believe in cross-sex friendships after relationship. I don't hate her like some people would do, just learned to ignore her after we"settled" things up lol. We're same generation in same school, so it wasn't really easy...

This part is for Gab specifically.The point is that this girl of yours might really be perfect or whatever, but you are not weakling if you move on. You may be under the same illusions as I and everyone that your life is nothing without her. How can you know what would be your life be if you haven't tried? If this is the same person that was one of issues in your first No Joy thread, which btw is owner of one of my rare WoTs, I think it's time. You'll hardly find love of your life in our age. It happens, but very rarely. I'd rather consider weakling someone who can't move further. I'm not trying to insult you, just so you know. It's hard as **** but you need to man up and do it. I consider my present self much better then the one I described, and I think her opinion would be the same if she was to be asked, but that doesn't matter now. You need to cut it out, either it works out or not and move on in one of two paths. Harsh but true. I'm still moody frequently, even depressed, I already wrote it somewhere, that's my weird and contradicting personality. I'm starting to repeat myself, I'll stop it now. I already wrote much shorter version in more distant past.
It probably won't change anything but just so you know, you're not the only one who was in those ****s, and I hope you won't be the only one who remained in it.

Super hypocrite cliche that is sadly trye sentence for the end: If you yearn for acceptance of others you must accept yourself first. I think it's EXACTLY the problem.

[CruleD]

Ah, that Love, such a beautiful feeling yet so painful...

I don't know if I wish to fall in love again or stay "forever alone".

[Daek]

cocacola is better than pepsi

/hate

[ByOdinsBeard]

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[Shiina]

I'm contemplating an all-nighter.

Not too tired.


Hrmm.

[Gabrantus]

@Sigurd: Been in love for 3 years, and counting. I'm gonna stop talking about this now, makes me feel like some angsty teenager, which I'm not (supposed to be).

[Lawl]

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This song/video usually give me a motivation boost. Great song :).