After a long distance down the road, I realised I had unfinished business with my first love.
I decided to send her a letter, thanking her for all the beautiful memories she left in my soul and that i will always keep with me, the things i learned with her, and what were the things i loved the most about her when we were toghether. I had 3 other relationships after her but nothing like what i had with her, nothing that intense and enduring.
I had to release something within me. Something of the likes of appretiation for the time she spent in my world, and everything we been thru together. I cried tears of happiness and sadness as I was writting the letter, sent it, and then I figured I needed to cry some more. Decided to spend whatever the time that was needed to get clear of that, was about an hour and a half of .. letting that story go.. and now i can look at the past, at that particular part of my past , with different eyes, clean eyes, holding no grudges.
PS: Yes , you need to cry sometimes (you, alpha male). Actually keeping sadness locked inside will **** with your brain and solidify your heart making you unable to feel anything at all. Not a fate i wish to no man or woman.